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Thursday, July 9, 2015

^_____^

Yesterday,
I learn a lesson,
To adore or idolized somebody
Is alright
But, to be the exactly like them
Isn’t something that irritated and annoyed them?

It’s like you copycat her/him life
Some part of them
But, 
The question is:
1.“Do they know what him/her has been through to be the part that they idolized so much?”
2. “Where does the strength come from?”
3.”Does they aware that their starter of their life is different?”

Answer for those:
1. Experience is the best teacher. They learn from the past, accept their weakness and help the needed one that also struggle with them to be success.
2. It come from traumatize and to change them to be a better one. To protect their love ones. Do what is necessary in the present, worry about the future later.
3. Different book, tell a different story line. So, does everybody life, it’s like a book, they tell their past stories and share with others, current situation to make the future story dream come true.

My advice:
Look at the different angle, don’t be so selfish about yourself only, stop compare your life with others.

Your life is needed for somebody, your existence tell a different perspective to anybody that know the pain, yourself is needed to make everybody notice you are you and you are someone precious and love one.

It’s a matter of time and patient that are the price to found one. It’s a gamble.

Nobody will save you, except yourself.
The truth is:
Everybody is the main character in their life. Nobody is the side character. But, we’re the one that classified ourselves too much.

List your weakness and try to erase it!
Erase it with the new you that want to improve your current situation.
It’s a bit challenge but you can do it!
I know you can and you will.

I’m proud of you guys that still stand on your feet and still breathing.
 Well done~


Brain = Computer

I have lost my precious thing,
And that is,
my memorable memories.
Was,
Until my friend told our stories that we once shared together.


I can't recalled of everything.
even with my current college life.
I don't recalled anything.

I thing that's the syndrome that I called
Thrashing.

I delete unnecessary item and story in my head,
but, I accidentally drag with my precious story line.

my brain is like computer
it's fulled,
yet i try to fit it in.

after a long time, i found it
such a waste
I couldn't take both,
I should make a choice,
this or that
I choose either,
I make a decision,
all or nothing.

I take nothing~

Friday, July 3, 2015

Game over

you should save me
you should...

now, I become a monster
because
of the hatred of someone
not there 

helping me
the old me in the past
struggle to make up
not knowing what was my wrong doing.

I ... turn into it
the devil speak the truth
the angel speak the lies

so where am I?
I'm in between them ~
I slowly move to Devil..

don't worry ~
there's a good deeds in me still inside me

but, once I declare STOP,
I'll erase all your good deeds with me
especially our memories TOGETHER ~
will turn into ANOTHER
trash to be thrown..
GAME OVER for you 



I don't have a Life

I really am annoyed with the encounter of meeting old friends

1. I don't know what to talk about
2. I rarely like to talk about my past( I think I have throw it away)
3. I'm not used to the crowd places
4. I go out just to have fun 
5. I want to go out to forget about the problem (I really do)
6. I have no idea what to talk
7. I kinda a boring person to talk with.
8. I can live on my on if my chain not attached to anyone
9. I feel like I'll kill somebody ~( I really do if I set on my mind)

to sum up, my life is worthless ~
why?
huh.. my movement is being watched ! *@*^k !
I need to experience it !!!!!!!!!!!!!
What can i do if i have wall without my own will !

I want to know hardship ! I want !

Piss

I met my old ex-classmate
just consist of 5 peps
I kinda get awkward cause they wouldn't like
to say anything with me
just like seriously,

for the first time I make an appearance with them
first thing they said ;
 I have lost weight ~
Really? How should I know man.
n that hit me ;
am I that fat during my school day? 

secondly, this the 2nd time I heard them
first was when I met my teacher..
n she like ;
You LOSE WEIGHT HALF of yours are gone.

again , Am I that fat?
When I look back my old photos
Yeah, I am that Fat!
Oh GoD! 
It was due to stress that I lose(i think)
and also, 
I kinda piss off when I heard my sibling can go out and watch movie with her friends.
while me?
I can't even get hangout and be blame with the situation !
I had told her I'll be a bit late and what! I gain annoyed and frustration and
she said don't blame others
!@%^$#$#&

I'm the one who'll be blame! really!
I wanna have fun too but why can't I stay late like others?
I really am PISSED

I always argue with you !
I'm just demanding simple thing
I want to hangout with friends
later, after you embarrassed me..
I found that ~
I don't want to hangout with anyone ANYMORE

so, I want to hangout ALONE!
you WOULDN'T give  that, right.
therefore,
If you don't  want to follow me my demand, don't blame me if I have no LIFE !

Thursday, July 2, 2015

RaNdOm ^^

Phobia ~
is term of saying
you just don't want to involve with those activities

well, i used that so, that
my friends will give up
on introducing their friend with me

like :
why're u guys eager to make me meet up with strangers?
although, they're your friends
doesn't mean i must friend with them~

Quote :
they're your friends, doesn't mean you're my friend...

give me a break man ~
I'm just a bad with people ~
I am a LONE WOLF ~