Lesson 7

I learn that

I ... have no guts to tell them
what I really feel

My will ~

one of my friends

had asked me..

she said" if only you have months left to you before you die, what would you do?"

Friend A : I'll skydiving around the world

(It's an awesome choice and things she would do, I'm kinda jealous)

Friend B: I'll go traveling, so a bit same with you

(Woo! she's awesome ~ haha )

they're all curious with my answer..

It's make me wonder...

what would I want to do before I die?

doing a good charity, at least it'll make people remember me..

but, I rather choose

being forgotten ~

I'll run away from home but doesn't it sound like them too?

travel =world = run

so, I choose to stay ~

why?

it's easy man,

I can throw my belongings

so that, there'll be no trace of my existence...

It's easy right?

on top of that ~

I really want to punch someone face..

I really want..

*laugh* haha

isn't will be lonely to die alone? without any memories with your beloved ones?

I want to cherish every minute, savor it till the end,

i know, it's greedy but..

isn't something that you want to see every single day

and just glad that you're alive again..

to meet them

stress

I found that !

I get really depressed whenever I'm at home..

I don't want to go out or hangout with friends

It's simply I just want to get out from my house

can't I run from my reality for a while?

can't I?

It's unfair for the eldest to be stuck and can't do simply anything !

while my other siblings can do anything they like..

I'm just a doll..

attach with a chain...

That's why.. 

I want to get out... sooner !

Why it always me to getting mad at?

=.=

* Now, i'm in mood swinging ~~

I'm happy for a moment and dam... i'm reading this comic and its a sad story and I cry !

hahah then I laugh ~ ^^

curse !

you people better be careful,
who u're talking behind their back
cause..
I'll get a dream meeting you guys.. and I know what you're talking about..
so, you guys are safe if i didn't go to sleep 
haha ! It's not a gift it's a curse! cause I can't sleep peacefully !
It's hard man~
especially those who're really close to me ~
please don't talk about me ~ It's useless ~
cause I'm not popular and not worth to be a hot topic ~
*sigh*

#Lesson 6

LOVE ~ and LIKE

which is more powerful?

the answer is

in your  HEART& DESIRE/CHARACTERISTIC

about that person~

it's all about you ~

It's YOU whose  is will decide your future

being a picky one isn't good either but it shows you have a goal or ideal characteristic and something you can achieved.

i respect those people..

they can be idolized but there's pros and cons

choose carefully whom to be a good modal for you and your future child.

what about those who doesn't have any specific characteristic?

don't worry, sooner or later, you know who's your crush and why you like her/him.~

But, i choose the path of LIKE everyone..

cause it's easy..

you don't have to choose your favorite one~

It's called COWARD

and i have no guts to do that either..

it's like choose between your mom and your internet when their's flood or unfortunate disaster come..

whom'll you choose?

It's hard man but... i'll choose my mom cause,

she's the only of the kind that exist in this world~

while LOVE is something i has never experience.. so the chances for me to fall in love is likely 0.01%,

that's the lesson I learn...

Know your position~

PS : Leo doesn't like to show affection and convince their love, but they truly loyalty and trustworthy unless, you have done something that really pissed Leo than prepare to meet your Creator ~

Lesson #5

if u really r tired thn go to sleep
but if u really want to sleep but u can't
that what peps call insomnia ~

That's  my current situation ~
I have i bags ~~ hahah horrible situation~

MONSTER in human form~

I keep on wondering ~
Have I become like them?
because, I think I do ~
I think become the same person that I once hated

later, I found that ...
I turn to be like  others..
the question is Why?

I think I become depend and my liking 
towards electronics really are something
It's scared me to death ~

That... I been to absorbed with internet that I intend to abandon my responsibility
I'm doing for the sake of what?

when I'm home I expect to be heart-warming...
I intend to keep it all and I stop talking with my parents
I play with my phone all the time
to avoid being lonely and ditched~
My phone is my life savior but..
It's just a moment ~...
Soon... It will leave me..

I must stop... for the sake of humanity ~
Humanity that give joyful to the world ~ That's my opinion ~

Chanllenge 1

I ...

been put at the edge of the cliff ..

Literally I'm stressed, depressed and under pressure (which mean the same)

Everyone expectation really corner me...

I have life... n I encounter with more problematic situation ~

Challenged and emotion to handle..

Being heartless is suited for me..

until...

I realized... I..

Hate myself..

to the extent I torture myself not eating and other stuff for fun,,,

#Depressed