Useless talk ~

I still remember

I had drawn something like that..

n guess what ..

My drawing came to life and IT came true ~

So I want to thank the mangaka(comic artist)

For drawing such perfect stories !

So, It does satisfied me ~

Thank you !

But, It's your work that I admire !

So keep on fighting !

Gambatte ne ~

# I'm just so touched by your works btw your's drawing is better than mine !

One day, I want to be like you ~ 

could that day come for me?

#Lesson 4

Don't ever ever ...
be afraid of losing friends or someone
cause maybe the other person that replaced their seat
maybe your best friend until death..
maybe better than previous one
but..
it could be turn the other round
It's up to you to take the risk!
Life is a gamble~
It's ALL or NOTHING

I, myself unsure to take the challenge ~
But, if it is the instinct to survive says that..
Than I'm willing to leave them..

#we wouldn't know until we figure it out, isn't?
I'm still thinking

Grumble

If you're a girl and the eldest,
I'm sure you have been struggling to be set free right?


how about boy?
I bet they want you to be the idol for your siblings,
a good example,
heavy duty there..

but they want the best for us right?

I don't mind but please !!
Let us breath and look at the world ourselves.
we want to know the hardship so we can
appreciate you guys more..
gratitude for your guidance ~

We'll be spoil ~
 // some maybe true ~

#Lesson 4

Never to attached with people

You are in your mother womb. Alone

You live by yourself

Even, you'll die by yourself..

It harsh but true isn't?

It open my eyes,

we can make bond

but not too tight ~

Child complain

I realized that
if I say like :
" I won't go out"
I'll done the opposite one
It's like a curse..

so I'll think my words before say it our loud
also,
I been caught up with my friend-intro-to-the-other-friend A.K.A new friend added in my list of friend,
It not like I don't like him,
just ..
I'm not comfortable
why?
they fluency beyond me..
I'm mere human with low capabilities and I didn't even know my IQ level.. (that's sucks)

Describe my new friend :
Male
same age as me
[that's it]

what i don't like about him was
he like to ask question,
always but a bait on me,
wanting me to say, speak my mind, LOUDLY,
also, he is very persuasive,
the more you resist the more he will try to open your mouth.
I'll just nodded and shook my head for the reply
cause I don't want to make them feel uncomfortable with my presence.

the story goes like this :
"So, how can you be friend with this monkey?"
I looked down, don't want to make eye contact, cause I know, he'll think I'm daring, so let's avoid any possible question to be asked. long silent there, sweat keep bugging my face.,
then, "really, you asked that question? of all the question that keep on pampering your head?", she replied and look at him.
I feel relieve. Thank you friend for backing me up.
"Personally .. it's bec-", before she could finished her sentence, he shush her and said,
"I'm talking to your friend, not you!" that sentences really choke me. i took a deep breath and pull some courage and look up.I keep on pressing my lips, parted it and closed it. in the end i just let it be hanging. Hard question to be answered for me. He keep on questioning me. I feel like I'm in interrogate room.
I'm the culprit and his the detective.

-end of the flashback-
Now, they want to meet up again..
I don't want to meet him..
I hope we didn't meet again cause I'm pretty hell sure.. three of them will plotted dark plan on me..

#Save me 

#Lesson 3

i realized that
I hate those things...

they crawl at you, 
with those fur around their body,
slowly?
no, they crawl faster, looking at you
and give that poison injection
whenever, you touched it.

\feedback for its surprise appearance
I took tissue wrapped it and throw outside.
Live outside there! don't came near me!

That what I get for not sleeping, hallucination
mind blowing!
 now, when I'm typing and hit something soft
I'll jolted and find equipment to get rid of it..

#Lesson 3: never ever ever done that again!

#Lesson 2

I learn that,

I should know, I'm in what position to them..or even my status ranking in the society..

friends? old friends? enemy?, my ally? best friends? lover(not happening)?

or maybe

a side character to them? but I gave a huge effect in their life? or just a passer-by that unfortunately involve in their life drama? 

then I realized,

I'm good on being a side character,

it's me, it suit me.

I'm high-status rank in society,

cause I know,

what's the different between diamond and shattered glasses!

i found the diamond the sparkle me and give hope to move on, no matter what roads we take, our heart still link.

treasure them, because they are someone that openly accept your flawless .

the shattered glasses, we could give them a change to become diamond, it's up to them,

the glasses sparkle but give annoyed feeling and irritated by its reflection.

but, why don't we give them a second change?(depend on their performance)

#Lesson 2

#Lesson 1

I just realize that
i'm bad when dating with people.
How did I know?
easy , i have been hooked up with dating sim and every single day i been through.. with them
it's hell man !
How the hell I know what you like?
your color and everything..

first lesson I learned,(just realized today!)
I'm bad in PR ~

#Lesson 1

Happy mother's day

Happi mother's day to all.of ur moms...
May Allah bless her hardship and keep guiding her and hv a wonderful day to celebrate n thank her to for gving birth, keep us healthy.. I could feel thr power of love filled my body, the way she caresses us until we turn teenagers, still support us as we keep hurting their feelings.. but they still there... stay by our side smiling n wait patiently for our return, don't reject her love.. accept who she is she as she accept our flawless.. she's perfect.. also she won't be lonely cause I'm here as her daughter/son will protect and keep her happy with all my mighty.. all my strength are for her. Thank you mom's
I love you..
I'm glad I'm born to.be ur awesome daughter/son.. ❤
#happymother'sday